What do you do?

You know how it feels when everything comes crashing down on you?
Maybe not everything and maybe the things that do don’t matter so much but the thing is they do.

This is one of the times I feel like I wont be able to make it in the world . and I am not one of those people thinking this every second day or maybe I am. I don’t know anymore.

I cant feel fine anymore and that sucks. The world,my world is full of pain right now and I am to blame for it.

If I hadn’t gone blank,would I have done well? I don’t know. Not for sure anyways.

You know the feeling of failing yourself? I now know how desperate it makes you

I was on my path to slit my hand so that I could focus on the pain rather than the problem I had. It was stupid,cowardly and very desperate. It hurt so much.

I feel like I cant make it anymore and there is nothing I can do to make myself feel better.

When you fail yourself,there is almost nothing you can do to mend yourself. So what do you ultimately do? Live until you die? Pledge to do better on the risk of failing yourself again? What do you do?

I don't know anymore.

The Brilliant minds destined for greatness

She is gonna change the world and she doesn't even know it yet.
So there's this friend of mine, and she is what you and me and everyone calls one of the Brilliant minds I have had the opportunity to meet or witness.

What's so Brilliant about her, you ask?
Everything.
The way she embarks on a new journey everyday and never gives up and has the guts to look everything and anything in the eye and be brave.
The pride she has in her voice when she tells me how her parents are the reason for everything that she stands and hopes to stand for and more.
The life she has in her eyes when she talks about something she is so much interested in.
The love I have seen in her just for her friends and family. Her fun nature, her lively jokes, her ability to make everyone smile and so much more.
I could never say no to her no matter what I did, or she did. For all I know I might do everything for her and that would seem less but she won't ever let me do anything for her. Even she hasn't done a thing in her life for herself. There isn't an instance I find where I could find her selfish.
The fight I see and have seen in her all the days we have spent together, the fight to be better than her best.

She is the fire, no water, ice or rain can put out.
She is life.  And she doesn't even see it.
A cruel joke indeed but a very well planned one too.

When I see her or when I remember her.. My memory can never recall once when we fought.. I do not know how but we have never fought and still pride ourselves to call each other's best friends because that's the way we are.

Even if months would to go by without us talking, one phone call or message would and will be all it would take to get all that time covered. That's how we simply are.
And I pride myself on knowing that.

My friend is destined for greatness and is going to change the world.
I hope she gets to know it someday.
I hope I tell her this someday.

Until I know?

What makes the interesting things,Interesting at all?

The last posts I've written have been very serious and while I was on my way to bid one of my oldest friends’ goodbye for two long years, it struck me.
I should try something light and mundane too because that is exactly what makes the interesting days interesting, If you know what I mean.
Days aren't just interesting because people or even we say they are. Days are figured as boring or interesting compared to the other days of the week, month, year or even a decade.
A person who has had travels all around the world would have different views on interesting things compared to the person who has never ever stepped out of his hometown.
That is it.
Everything we know and talk about is a comparison.What we find acceptable is only that way to us because the other stuff isn't.
Truth is the truth not because it really happened but because all the other versions of it are lies.
People are compared, statistics, logistics, marks, problems, achievements, EVERYTHING we know is that way because the others aren't.
Think back to the moment you met the person you value most in your life at the current time. Or in some cases where you actually don't have one, take any example from your environment.
How did you meet them? What is it that drew you close enough? The point of all this is that you wouldn't have been this close to the exact same person if there would have been two like him/her at that same moment.
Let’s face it. You liked him/her because you didn't like the rest the same.
And now all of you reading this would think "No, I liked him/her because he had something in him/her, not because the others didn't" and now I'll tell you why. Because all of you like every other human being would find it degrading to be compared, to find the other human measured in front of you and I agree it is threatening.
But then again, that is how I could tell you the role of comparison in everything we do or we claim to do every second of every day.

Why do we compare while we can just feel our way into events? Into things?
Until we know.

Cancer grows out of normal cells in the body. Normal cells multiply when the body needs them, and die when the body doesn't need them. Cancer appears to occur when the growth of cells in the body is out of control and cells divide too quickly. It can also occur when cells forget how to die.

Cancer

• A zodiac sign
• And a deadly disease

Cancer was first discovered by Hippocrates who called them by the name "carcinos"
Time after time,cells were discovered and many other types of cancers too.Scientists classified the cancer into benign and malignant and hence the research started.

Most of the scientists concluded that there was almost no cure to this disease according to them.

There is no cure.simple as that

But as the human tendency is,they always have to have more.They have to know more than before,create more than before and be everything the preceding generations couldn't be and this profound tendency was one of the many reasons scientists didn't give up their thirst for knowledge and also its cure.

The world changed because of some rare abnormalities in the human cells.People died because of this.

Millions of scientists have been and are still giving their life's work to finding the cure of such a disease which brings alarm and death into the eyes of people.Slow,painful death.
Cure,wherever it may be will come to someone,someday and that is our sole hope.

The cancer disease takes away a lot of life's and it doesn't believe in keeping count.Well,nor do we.

We have accomplished to go to the moon and back,fight wars,fight for our freedom and we have come such a long way which should only serve as a constant source for motivation for finding this cure and working it out to such an extent that we ensure there isn't even a single life being taken on the hands of incurable slow death-giving cancer.
What if the cure of cancer would have been found by the same people who discovered it?
If the millions of lives taken from our world wouldn't have been taken away?

The story again would have been different.
Until we know.

16 DECEMBER 2012

A Girl was beaten up and raped in a bus.

To look at it more closely, a 23-year-old female physiotherapy intern was beaten and gang raped in a bus in which she was travelling with her male companion. There were only five others in the bus, including the driver, all of whom raped the woman.

The incident generated widespread national and international coverage and was condemned by various women groups, both in India and abroad. Subsequently, public protests against the Government of India and the Government of Delhi for not providing adequate security for women took place in New Delhi, where thousands of protesters clashed with security forces. Similar protests took place in major cities throughout the country.


The people all over the country sent messages.organised strikes.fought over news channels to ensure that the girl fighting for her life gets justice.Women get justice.


I cant help but think,What if this wouldn't have happened?If this heinous act of lust wouldn't have taken place and that girl,whose name was not released by the media but still had several names such as damini,nibhaya had lived?

Would our government be this alert about our women's security?Would new rectified laws be created like they are being now?

Would people all over the country join as one to fight for justice like they are now?


I don't think so.

The things that are changing around here,however amazing they may be for a start still do not justify damini's death and they never would.

A life was taken away as if it didn't matter and no one who was anyone at that time did anything.

There were 4 other people instead of the driver, wouldn't it have changed if even one of them had thought it all out?If one of them had not given in to the magnifying voice of his lust?

It makes you think.The story would have been so different.

Yes,maybe if that would not have happened,women wouldn't have been safer like they are now and maybe laws wouldn't have been modified but she would have lived.

Why does the government need a death as a wake up call?Why not close calls to these acts are being noticed?

After this case was brought to light,rape cases were started taken seriously,statistics were matched on the number of rapes in state wise and it was a national issue.

What puzzled me though is that all of this existed before this unfortunate massacre too but at that time did it not hold the same importance?If not then why?

Does a death signify what it takes for our people,the Indians to get serious?

Why death and why not terror?Why does it believe in being sorry than safe?

Every life is valuable,so we are taught but here lives are being scattered around just so something gets done and something changes.

Our world is about making changes. I believe in making changes.
But not through loss of lives. That isnt what a change is worth.
Do no harm. Isn't that the rule?
What if the rape would have never happened?

The world would have been different.

Until we know.